Not Waiting, not debating, anticipating!

Many of us grew up with more than our share of “truths” that didn’t serve us so well. “How are you going to do that?” “Who do you think you are?” “No pain, no gain.” “You’ve got to pay your dues.” “Money doesn’t grow on trees.”  “After 40/50/60 (pick a number!) things go downhill. You just have to accept that this is the way life is.”  I didn’t buy into those so-called “truths.” Something in me prickled every time I heard them. Trying to get me to accept such limitations was like rubbing a dog’s fur the wrong way.

Even if your parents were completely supportive, you heard others proclaiming such “truths” in defense of their own limiting beliefs.Somehow, the notion of unworthiness infiltrated our consciousness. Somehow, the notion of having to know “how” began to limit our dreams. Somehow, the need to have the “proper resources” became a roadblock preventing our hearts from daring to want what we want. And so we, as a race, have learned to talk ourselves out of what we truly desire.

I was lucky to have a rebellious streak. Tell me I can’t do something, and I’ll find a way or wait for the Divine to show me.

Permanent nerve damage in my foot at age 40? I don’t think so! I remember the rebellious thought arising when a well-intentioned doctor told me to accept my fate. I journaled about all that “got on my nerves.” I “put my foot down” and walked away from certain unkind behaviors in my life. I found that, in my case, vitamin B6 would support nerve health. I do not have nerve damage anymore.

“You can’t regrow gums,”  said one well-meaning soul. “Watch me,” I thought. “Gums are tissue, and tissue regrows if it isn’t broken down,” I reasoned. Connected with a strong desire, I was guided to research various ways to keep the mouth clean enough to let the gums grow. I discovered ozonated olive oil and, even more effective in the long run, dental probiotics. I looked at my terrible gums every day and saw, in my mind’s eye, their healed and whole future. I affirmed their wholeness way before I saw the evidence, and in so doing, believed so strongly that I allowed it to happen.

My all-time favorite limiting proclamation was levied upon me when I began my journey as an intuitive. “You can’t make a living as a psychic in Phoenix. There’s too much competition.”  “What competition?” I thought indignantly.  “There’s room for us all!” I figured if God put the impulse in me to quit my job and do this work, the Divine was going to deliver.  So far, so good!

Even now, after I’ve had a few injuries the past few years, I’m not settling.I messed up my alignment and therefore my vision and ability to hike long distances, but that’s a temporary condition. My humanity is a temporary condition! I’m going to allow for yet one more return to wholeness. How can a spiritual teacher who knows better get herself into such predicaments? Three words – I’m human too! I have a sense of humor about it 🙂

And so I return to what I know. I’m enjoying my life immensely. i’m not focusing on a lack of focus. I’m focusing on what I can focus on. I’m focusing on all there is to love, and there is a lot. I love my family and my friends. I love my clients. I love my garden. I love my creative work. I “see” the good all around me. I’m willing to “step beyond” what limits me now. I’m not “taking God’s pulse” ahd obsessing about what will happen and when. I’m enjoying now and expecting to be guided. For a short while, after the last injury, I felt beat down. I started to settle. But the force of eternal life rose up from within, “lit a fire under my fanny” as we used to say, and once again I’m enjoying the journey.

After I started doing my little two-minute “sit, breathe, and receive” meditations a few weeks ago improvements began to occur and signs started to appear with humorous regularity. An ad for a free class on “improving your vision” landed in my inbox last week with exercises I’ve done in the past, but forgot about. A bag fell off the shelf as I was cleaning. On it was printed an eye chart and the words, “Clear sight.”  I just smiled. I love watching the universe deliver its magic in the weirdest of ways. My part is simple. Enjoy life. Sit. Breathe. Believe. Receive. Listen to my guidance. Do my little morning yoga routine. Do my eye exercises, and as a license plate so eloquently stated years ago, “WAIT4GD.”  I’m not really waiting. I’m not debating. I’m anticipating.

It is easy to talk ourselves out of what we want. There are many who will help us make all sorts of excuses for why we can’t have what we want.We forget the miraculous power that lives within and guides us.

In my younger days, I settled for relationships that were far less than what I desired. I made so many excuses for why I was putting up with things that weren’t right for me. I told myself I was growing. It was true. I was. But I was also settling by not focusing more frequently on the feeling of what I truly desired.

In my younger days, I also settled for feeling bad in the body once a month until I got motivated enough to really believe there could be a solution. During my first gaze with Braco, the Croatian healer who still does free live streams each week, my monthly pains went away and never came back.

Although I had a feisty spirit, I still settled far too often. When I was looking for a house, I suddenly felt inspired to drive around and found one that was $10K too much and had no bathtub. Instead of saying, “That’s not it,” I struggled to figure out how to make it work. After all, I was guided to it. The angels were very clear with me, “Stop it. Don’t settle. This isn’t what you asked for.” True enough. So I surrendered. Within the hour, the realtor from that house called and asked if he could adopt me as a client. I had no one at the time so I agreed. He listened intently to my desires and sent me several listings.

The house I’ve lived in for 25 years now was at the top of his list. My client cancelled the following morning. His did too. He met me to show me the house. I walked in and knew it was mine, put in an offer, and had it accepted by the end of the day. Easy peasy. Had I given up on my true desire, I’d be in a house that I had to remodel, cost too much, and had a smaller backyard not nearly as good for gardening as the one I have now. I would have missed the lovely neighbors who are like family and so much more. Had I talked myself out of what I truly wanted, I would have enjoyed far less.

I often hear people say, “I’d really like this, but it’s OK if I never get it.”  They’re not lying in the sense that they’d be OK… but not thrilled. Not delighted. Not completely fulfilled. And that’s OK, but the moral of this story is that the Divine never gives up on us. We can guarantee our disappointment by disbelieving, by focusing on all the reasons we can’t have what we want, haven’t had it, don’t feel worthy of it, etc. Or we can get out of the way of Divine grace and enjoy our lives while making room in our hearts for more. Not waiting. Not debating. Anticipating…

Some things are tougher to imagine than others. You lose a loved one and want them back. How on earth could that ever be fulfilled?  It goes without saying that very few on earth will resurrect in the flesh, but if we commit to having a tangible relationship with our dear ones, one way or another, even if we don’t know how, it will happen. Reaching for good now and finding what little feels like love in the moment will attune you closer to their vibration in heaven… until one day your wavelengths will intersect and you feel their heavenly bliss and magnificent love for you once again.

A dear friend who died several years ago visited me the other day, and I burst into tears with the magnitude of love I felt pouring from their heart to mine.  My grandma occasionally jumps into readings. My grandpa warms up my right hand sometimes. I have another friend who passed last year, who feels like pure sweetness when she visits.  I have a dear client whose husband left in a tragic way, only to reappear in spirit with such amazing and constant signs that his presence is undeniable. I’ll let you know when her book is out. It is a profound, riveting, poetic journey through the depths of grief and back into the light.  She had no way of knowing how or if she could connect with him, but her deep and sincere desire to do so paved the path for her to open to this love, one small step at a time. She is going to help so many.

It is easy to guarantee disappointment by giving up on our hopes and dreams, but why not risk success? Why not dare to dream whatever you want to dream? Why not look for evidence of the good in life now, instead of obsessing on what can’t, hasn’t, or won’t work? Time will pass no matter what. Why not pass it in hopeful or even joyful anticipation, while making the best of now?

You’ve heard the adage, “If you think you can, you will. If you think you can’t, you won’t.” True story. The Divine can. The Divine will. It is up to us to believe, receive, and attune ourselves to genuinely loving life as much as possible in the here and now. Not waiting. Not debating. Just open-minded and anticipating.

Here are a few pointers to help you take the not-so-risky risk of working with the creator to allow your dreams to flow:

1.  Stop “Talking Smack” about your dreams

Stop telling yourself your dreams can’t, won’t, or haven’t happened. It might be true, but all the frustrated or self-pitying focus on the “why I can’t, won’t, or haven’t had it” runs contrary to your desire. Stop explaining what you’ve tried, why it never worked, and how God probably doesn’t care.

It’s no sin to engage in negative talk. We aren’t judged for it. We’ve all done it. It just doesn’t work.

Attuning to the fears, doubts, and disappointments is vibrationally opposite of tuning into the loving feeling of having what you want. It blocks the flow of energy. You can’t receive FM if you’re tuned into AM, and you can’t receive the Divine broadcast that says “I can” when you’re focused on why you “haven’t” or “can’t.”

If you can’t speak about your desires with love, find something you can love, and speak sweetly and genuinely about that.

2. Look for Evidence that What You Want is Possible

Instead of looking for evidence that things can’t happen, look for role models or other inspirations of people who have allowed what you want into their lives. Watch or read miracle stories. YouTube is a great place for such inspiration. Google works too. If your intent is sincere to find inspiration, Spirit will find a way to put it in front of you.

3. Enjoy your now

If we wait for our happiness, we’re not in the vibration to receive happiness. If we find ways to be happy or at least content now, we’re a match for more happiness. Same for abundance, love, etc.

When we let go of our obsession about having what we want and enjoy life, signs of our dreams suddenly begin to appear.

We are all so worthy of whatever we wish to experience this lifetime. We are not judged or evaluated. The Divine loves us because it is its nature to love, as surely as the Sun shines. It is its nature to do so.

We can open to the love-stream or block it. Allow yourself to enjoy the smallest things as often as you can. Expect that in the perfect time and way, what you want will show up. Not waiting. Not debating. Just happy now, open-minded, and anticipating.

I’m having fun with this little free vision program and am “looking” forward to even more joy on the path ahead!